What is love, What is life?

A story about a girl who fell in love with her best friend..

Jin and I are best fren..we do anything that best fren do...

One day, i realised that i love him...so i decided to confessed this feeling to him one nite where we camp with other frens. he said yes, he would be my boyfren..

So we went on like other gurlfrenboyfren's life does.
Watch movie, walk in park, eat together, go to beach....but life's not fun as when we are still best fren....he also doesnt talk much, or act like we are best fren, close and share everything...for me,he is not a suitable or loving boyfren...but i kept quitely this on my mind...

But since the day he bcome my boyfren, he every single day would give me a small teddy bear...
At first i thought it was lovely, but till now, i wonder why he would gav me this...

One day, i was walking alone at a park. Then i saw Jin talking to another gurl. I walk toward him and i overheard him saying "i love u' to the gurl. I was really angry and i run home coz Jin never told me he love me all the time we been boyfren and gurlfren.

Then, at midnite that day, he come to my house and i open the door. He just passed me the teddy bear that he used to give me everyday and said sorry coz i didn't giv u this today. i was really angry and i shouted at him,

"Why u alwiz giv me this crap? All i wan to hear from u is, I love you, that's it, izit too hard???"

Jin kept quiet. He took my hand and place the teddy bear on my palm and left away..i throw the teddy bear into my cupboard.

The next day, Jin asked me out. We meet at bus stop near my house..i walk there and then he just gav me a big teddy bear,my anger was still in high position,and i throw the teddy to the middle of the road. He keep quiet and then he go to the middle of the road and pick the teddy up. He dint realise a truck was coming towards him. I shouted at him
not to pick it up and he was about look at me,and...........................

*Bang*.


"JIN!!!!!!" I shouted...the nex minute he was lying on the road, covered with blood. He was sent to the hospital but it's too late...i lost him...forever....

after attended his funeral, i went back home and i hug all the teddy bear he gav me since the day we bcome gfbf...i counted the teddy bear one by one...
1...2....3...101...230....300..364...and the last teddy bear he gave covered with his blood
was the 365th...it had been a year we bcome bfgf...i queeze the teddy bear with the tears flow....suddenly...


*I love you~*
*I love you~*

i was shocked..i looked at the teddys...and i take one of it, and try to press on his tummy..

*I love you~*

i tried each and every teddy bear he gav me...

*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*
*I love you~*......................

and the biggest and the last teddy bear Jin gav me, I squeeze his big tummy...

*felicia, today is our very first annivery being bfgf after a year.....i always love you, yesterday,today,and forever........I love you....*

i dropped the teddy bear........

i never realised that Jin had actually told me those words..every single day....till today...

i slowly picked the teddy and i whispered to the teddy's ear..

"i love you too, Jin..and i always did........"

For the guys/gals that you loved
Tell them "i'll love u more than i cud b....
i'll care abt u more than i'm carin abt myself...
u're always the 1 in my heart

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible
because u think tat he/she doesn't miss u?
Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time,
sweet feeling.

U will be sitting around wondering if u meant
anything to him/her.

Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's
him/her.

Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will
surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television but thinking of
him, missing the final episode of your favourite
show.

Laying on your bed, thinking of the last time u
were out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars
again, talking about everything, your
dreams,plans,future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her
online.

When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not
return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is
okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.

It teaches u how to cope with being lonely and let u
know that there is actually a feeling known as
emptiness.

Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge in the
feelingof loving/caring for him/her.

But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is
feeling the same is terrible.

U feel as if u are being left alone.

So if u miss someone, tell him/her and let them
know.

At the same time, ask if they miss u.

Don't let the feeling of missing someone become
jealousy or paranoia.

If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the
other party know.

If u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait.


Well, what are you waiting for then?

To realize
The value of a sister
Ask someone
Who doesn't have one.

To realize
The value of ten years:
Ask a newly
Divorced couple.

To realize
The value of four years:
Ask a graduate.

To realize
The value of one year:
Ask a student who
Has failed a final exam.

To realize
The value of one month:
Ask a mother who has given birth to a premature
baby.

To realize
The value of one week:
Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper.

To realize
The value of one hour:
Ask the lovers who are waiting to meet.

To realize
The value of one minute:
Ask a person who has missed the train, bus or
plane.

To realize
The value of one-second:
Ask a person who has survived an accident.

To realize
The value of one millisecond:
Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the
Olympics.

To realize the value of a friend:
Lose one.